The year of completion and my #JanuaryWhole30- Day 0

I'm starting this post with a little something unorthodox for me- numerology. I am a Christian, but I do love learning about the parallels of different points of view of one's outlook in the coming year. It's a human reaction to want to predict the future or to see what it may hold. But often times in looking towards the future, we get a little too eager to want it to happen right away. This is true of making changes, and also of Macbeth.

Anyway, back to numerology and the year 2016. According to the Astrology Club online, 2016 is equal to the number 9 (2+0+1+6), and this year symbolizes, "completion, rest, and forgiveness." This statement poses a personal question for me: What do I need to complete, where do I need to seek rest, and who do I need to forgive and move forward? Most importantly, what does this have to do with making changes in ones life?

So every month, I will do a thing I need to complete, seek rest in where I need to, and forgive or ask forgiveness from those I care about most in my life. For now the completion goal of January is to complete a Whole30. I did it once before in April 2015, and the weight loss aside, I felt like a new person inside and out. I did well after the 30 days was completed but took a turn in October, and got in to an accident of binge eating around late October/November, with a winter blues spiral in December. But here I am, in January along with everyone else, determined to finish my second Whole30. So that's my completion goal.

For the rest part, I need to rest in God's hands. He's blessed me with some exciting things on the horizon, but I need to rest and know that everything will work out accordingly at work and with my family. So I guess that is my rest goal.

In regards to forgiveness, this month I am working on forgiving myself of all the stupid stuff I put myself through. Mainly because I have low self-esteem and have always battled with a little of sadness/depression. However, I throw myself into my work because those things are where I can not think about myself and really think about everyone else. But if I am to complete my Whole30 and find rest in God, I need to learn to love myself enough to say, "Christina, I'm sorry for what I put you through. Please forgive me." 

For the next 30 days I will try to blog about my journey regarding Whole30, but also the various steps I am making to find rest, and to seek forgiveness. Inshallah, everything will work according to God's will.